It’s cold....And I’m sorry to all those I have not messaged back!!!
Nov 15, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it it is
a cold day it really is
we are heading out to go do some
business so I didn't check in with you
guys this morning because I have been so
busy thanks so hectic I had like a
million things I was trying to get done
in the midst of all of this I got the
kids bathed in be bathed and got my
video edited and rope but I'm feeling
really good today so that's always a
good thing
gonna click off anyways so we are gonna
go and run those errands I need to get a
coffee I was gonna make one at home and
my husband is like it's ok baby
we'll just going buy you one I'm like
man you don't understand so but I yes
he's like we'll just go get you a coffee
I'm like ok can't argue with that really
can't so yes we're gonna go get me a
coffee my pants a little bit they're
like riding on my chest that is one
thing since I've been losing weight I've
noticed that my pants because they're
getting long I told Holly I said I feel
like as I'm losing weight I'm getting
shorter is that a girl thing can't
really lose weight and become shorter
because they feel like my legs have
gotten shorter but anyways so as I feel
like I'm losing weight my pants are
getting longer
don't know how that works but it is and
so I keep hiking them up by the time I'm
done they're like up to here I'll he's
like where's your waist at babe I'm like
so anyways but I got to continue to make
these clothes work because I know new
ones
pretty much everything that I have will
definitely make it through for quite
some time so adding something here and
there it's different than like going and
buying a whole lot so yeah so anyways I
thought I would say an official good
morning
and I hope you're all having a wonderful
start to your guyses Wednesday morning
as we are again our prayers go out to
everybody that is dealing with the fires
we are starting to get the smoke over
here in Oregon I knew I felt it
yesterday and Maya has been happening to
do is inhaler round-the-clock so I know
it's really affecting hem yeah I'm
hoping we get a good amount of rain just
to bring everything down a little bit
and so hopefully California get some
Marines okay get those fires under
control
because they are burning crazy
but yeah anyways and everybody that's
getting snow be safe driving in it I'm
sure everybody is pretty well equipped
unlike me I would never drive in snow I
think I drove him snow like twice in my
entire life
do you ever have those times with your
spouse where you just want to just open
up the door and say love ya Oh anyways
this hitchhiker right here he hitchhiked
a ride so but I guess he's a keeper and
you guys guess what our anniversary is
on Sunday yes
I will be married to this this old man
for so long
and many more years to come I was just
telling him yesterday you know what it
was yeah I'm aware of that I was
watching the car behind me that I
thought was gonna give me a kiss give me
a new car anyways I was telling only
yesterday I said you know when I was
younger I always wondered how those
people that would be married for like 67
years how they were still in love like
did you ever get tired or bored of each
other that's what was in my mind when I
was way younger like way younger and now
it's like you know I'm married to my
best friend and now I understand you
know that I could be married to this man
for a hundred years and my love just
grows deeper every single day which is
crazy it's I love him more today than I
loved him yesterday and I love him more
today than I loved him the day I first
met him so I thought I loved him a lot
then so they're doing yard work so
anyways crazy how you can love somebody
so much
they can put up with you and your
craziness so anyway okay so we are at
the post office right now Debbie you are
getting your wreaths so you will have
the fall wreath giveaway which I am
hoping and praying that it will get to
you before Thanksgiving I expose eyes
extremely from the bottom of my heart I
am so so so sorry for not getting these
out sooner I apologize I apologize I
apologize and I really hope that the
Christmas wreath will make it up and
that you enjoy a hint because I feel so
bad and I just got to be better about
this and make sure even if I'm sick that
I have all a backing me up on that one
and getting things sent out and stuff
because you know that's not fair
I'm like three weeks past
when I yell yeah about three weeks past
what I should have been I'm getting it
out so I apologize but anyway so we are
here at the post office getting the
wreath sent out I stopped already and
got my coffee I get a grande iced skinny
caramel macchiato upside down and this
one is a hundred and forty calories for
this coffee which I consider it not
being bad on calories like I mean yeah
it's zero calories would be best but if
I can do it you know and still enjoy a
coffee why not
so that's what I did so anyway so we're
just gonna do this and then we're gonna
go to the bank and then we gotta go pick
up a car or something something like
that
I was gonna say something to you guys oh
yeah it was so like shocking so we went
to the store the mini-mart first before
we went to go and get Ali's drink and
there were inmates out doing work and
which I don't have a problem with that
by all means you guys to know my I my
mother was incarcerated so I don't have
a problem with him it's like that they
don't bother me I don't bother them but
anyways there was this lady that pulled
up and she was getting out of the car
and these two guys that were part of the
inmate group I probably could have
walked over there and gave them a towel
to wipe their mouths because they were
drooling so bad and just gawking at her
while she was walking and I thought you
know how disrespectful like you know I
understand you're incarcerated I know
you know you're her man and you're
locked up thinking you know but they're
like sitting there like these two guys
are like holding on to each other and
like you know and like I don't know
where like where the guard was at that
moment I seen him later but um anyways I
was just like you know how it is
respectful like don't don't be a dog you
know I mean come on have respect for a
woman that is not doing anything but
going amongst her day to go and get
something from the mini-mart like why
are you treating her like she's like a
sex symbol or something I don't know I
don't know why it just rubbed me wrong
but it did because I was just like dude
if that would have been me I would have
probably turned around and totally made
a fool of you like that's just me though
I would have embarrassed him oh I
probably turn around like a big ol fart
out or something be like oh yeah now you
think I'm cute that's how I am that's
just I yeah I'm good at ruining rooney
moments you know my husband tells me all
the time he's like well you just ruined
a moment like
um but yeah I would have totally like
embarrassed the living crap out of him
but I don't think she even had a clue
what was going on because she simply got
out of the car and just was walking she
had no idea what was going on behind her
but I did because I was sitting in the
car watching so of course I could see
everything going on and I was just like
oh so I drove the opposite direction so
I was just like I probably would have
been like yelling out the window do you
need me to give you a bone
do you need something to chew on yeah
clearly I can't stand people like that I
I can't stand even watching like and I'm
very alert like I watch everything going
on around me I don't know why I'm just
nosy I am clearly I'm nosy and so
sometimes when I'm sitting there waiting
like I need to go and do something or
whatever I will literally be sitting
there and I'll just watch people and
I'll watch like guys sitting there and
I'll see like a woman walked by him and
I'll just sit there and watch the guy
like looking her up and down up and down
up and down it's like are you did
kidding me like I don't see what are you
doing that very often I think I've never
really seen a woman like checking a guy
out at least I don't think so but then
yes I do it I see it all the time it's
just like our sahabat I don't know why
it's a pet peeve of mine and I think
it's just gross gross I even told my
husband don't look at me when I'm
walking past and I'll be like what are
you talking about him like don't look
it's like okay me like don't be a dog
he's like all right hey Murph oh you
guys could just be a fly on our wall we
could keep you guys very entertained
busy over here at the post office
goodness it's weird because it's like
it's gloomy and it's a little windy but
it's not like cold let me switch my
camera
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that's weird cuz like I walked out
thinking it was gonna be like really
cold and it's not at all
and clearly there's still people wearing
shorts because the guy just walked into
the post office in shorts so I'm not -
don't you psycho - feel that it's not
too cold
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okay so we are just going to pick up the
car
later head back drop the car off at the
yard and then we are going to tonight
for dinner I'm gonna have a taco salad
and they're gonna have tacos biznes
gonna have the taco meat last night for
a taco salad but I ended up not eating
dinner I just wasn't hungry I had a late
lunch so I'm thinking that that's what
played into me not being hungry so I'm
gonna go ahead and have the taco salad
tonight so that we can use up the meats
we'll just use up for tacos and taco
salads and
don't worry that's a done thing then
tomorrow night pinky
no I won't do it tomorrow night I'm
gonna do it my way and date I want to
make
spaghetti so I think we're make
spaghetti for Saturday I got on the
scale and in my Midway week way and I'm
not updating you guys this time you guys
are gonna have to sit and wait and see
what happens so I did
I did do that
okay weather just makes me so like
relaxed and sleepy like it's 2:30 and
it's like already dark like I totally I
said this is like weather where you want
to like cozy up on the couch with the
fireplace and watching a movie that is
like my that's my genome but it
told me so this just makes me want bad
and
I think tonight I'm gonna try and sit
down and watch a cute movie with the
family it's like a winter movie or
something on Netflix
it's a Christmas with me I don't know Oh
we'll find the name and I'll put it here
on the screen but it looks opposed to be
really cute and it's on Netflix so we're
gonna do that tonight with the kids
pop them some popcorn and have a little
bit of a family family movie night we
haven't done that in a long time today I
go forward because it's been three
nights in a row that I haven't slept
very well I don't know because I starts
been sick I don't know if I told you
guys that but she's been really stuck
with a bad cold so it's really hard
because she's just sucking her fired
she's not being able to segment so poor
baby has just been
but she's making up her sleep during the
day when she's happy
great
well I heard this morning was a baby so
so I told him I said yeah maybe I'll
just go take a short now just like a now
we're now but just a little bit
something just down just I hold all day
because I am disabled sauce
and yawning isn't new to us also that's
not an indicator that I'm tired but I am
really tired today
I think I'm gonna go home so that way I
can
get up and then
watching me live in the kids everybody
had baths last night so I won't be them
tonight especially because as you're a
sec I don't want to be for baby birth
I don't want to over bathe her so I
won't be her to my I'm just gonna skip
tonight so they don't know one has to
take a shower is Jeremiah bend at me
plenty of empty
so frustrating Jonnie like this but this
Jana is I can't tired young I know the
difference I can feel my body my body is
just like we're now so I've got the nice
seat warmer on and the warmer the heat
around Oh Michael toasty but anyways so
I think of the 30 to 30 so it's getting
close to dinnertime but I need to eat a
little something to tide me over for at
least a couple of hours and that way I
take it out
Jeremiah should beginning
about the same time we're all getting
home we have to stop by the pharmacy and
pick up the rest of my meds because not
all we're all ready to be picked up
yesterday even though I specifically
called and asked to made sure that they
were all gonna be ready and they're like
yeah yeah they'll all be ready I'm like
okay oh wow skin ointment the one that I
use for my rashes her skin we bent and
her Bruce broom which is my anxiety /
about medicine
she's like be ready until tomorrow 5:00
sorry today a 5-wood was yesterday
that's like a naive not gonna be back in
an hour to come pick those two up so
just forget it because I already had
some to hospital today
forget ed just come back and get himself
the cream I do I'm actually out of the
green so I actually should go pick them
up today but we'll see what time we get
done because I want to go and pick up
from the Mexican restaurant they have
you can go and pick up their homemade
chips and salsa and believe it or not
Omar nusra so
I'm gonna they eat the chips it's also
like no other so I'm gonna go ahead and
pick up some of that because we're out
and I'm the better person like today
because I can fill it
especially does it start when I go home
and lay down I lay in my room and it's
dark so and I can guarantee you later on
dark and it's gonna be one of those
moments where I lay my head down and I
probably won't remember that I even like
those are all good times
anyways
Debbie you should be getting your briefs
by Friday they said so I just want to
make sure that I mentioned that they say
you definitely have them by Thanksgiving
but she said more than likely you should
have them by
by Friday so fingers crossed Friday
sorry aunt Elena's Bayesian beginning
them some of those are often and ready
to go
don't forget you guys for this coming up
give away him I need everybody's teams
to start being submitted I would like to
see a lot of people doing this time it
doesn't take much to just hide you guys
his name into the drawing just shoot me
an email a me 1981 Ramadan gmail.com I
will post it up here on the screen again
I'll do that for the next couple of days
until we reach my bike it was like three
or four names tied to it and you know
obviously give everybody an opportunity
to win so let's try and get our names in
and that way then you have the
opportunity to win this time I
anyways I
we'll be going live I think it's either
Tony enter the 29th of November I am
going to double-check but I think it's
the 29th it's the Friday after Black
Friday because I was gonna do it a lot
ready Friday and I completely did not
realize it was Black Friday so I
definitely want to do that but I'll be
alive for an hour that night so that
will be exciting I love going live with
you guys it's nice because it gives us
all something to look forward to that
once a month check-in time makes it nice
so that will be I will double check but
I'm pretty sure
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pretty sure
yes no yeah the 29th the 29th so
Thursday November 29th 5 p.m. Pacific
Standard Time so don't forget
you don't want to miss it and I'll just
keep reminding you guys those that the
time goes by
not forget me
anyways alright you guys will be stuck
between all these buses but I will check
in with you guys in a little bit I don't
know if I'll check in with you as soon
as I go home because like I said I'm
gonna go home and take it now because I
am exhausted but for sure I will check
in with you at some given time
okay there's a kid that comes the bus
like through his backpack down ones are
jumping up and down screaming like a
bamboo
rough rock dance school goodness I need
to get my calls for haptic
I'll flip you guys around so you can see
a little bit of the outside when I'm
talking about
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oh good evening trying to adjust myself
here I am currently sitting here
answering messages you guys I want to
apologize
oops I need to find my find my meteo I
want to apologize right now to anybody
that feels like
I didn't or that I haven't messaged back
quick enough what do you want that
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anyways it is never my intention to make
you guys feel like your comments or
stories sorry here take it take it take
it and go
anyways I would never want you guys to
feel like what you are saying or what
you have to share is like no because is
mm farthest from the truth that I could
ever ever state or think or fill and I
know that a couple of people expressed a
little bit of you know concern because I
I haven't commented back and and it's my
intention to comment back to everybody
cuz I've said that from the very
beginning that it is such an important
thing for me to keep communication with
all of you guys because all of you are
very important to me every one of you
guys are important to me and I would
never want anybody to go unheard or felt
unheard or that they feel like
you know their comment wasn't worthy to
be you know addressed or noticed or
anything like that and I make it my
ultimate goal every night to sit down
during the time that me and Ollie are
watching TV or whatever after the kids
go to bed because that's what I can
really sit and focus on you know my
messages and reading them and because I
don't just read over them you guys and
be like okay well so and so said this
okay respawn back with a generic answer
that's not how I am
and I love to read the messages and
wholeheartedly take what you guys are
saying in and be able to you know
express my feelings and my response as
wholeheartedly as I can as well and so
the last you know since I've been
dealing with being sick and and stuff I
kind of fell back a little bit you know
I really had a hard time keeping up
because I was so sick and sitting for
long periods of time you know with the
laptop on my leg it was hurting and you
know so I mean I'm not trying to put an
excuse out there cuz they don't want
anybody to feel like you know that I am
going back on my word about wanting to
respawn because I'm not saying anything
negative to any you know any YouTube
channel every youtuber has their their
strengths and their weaknesses some just
don't they can't handle you know writing
back multiple messages I enjoy writing I
enjoy expressing I enjoy that closeness
of the one-on-one personal mist that I
get between each and every one of you
guys so to me I enjoy reaching back out
to you guys and you know messaging and
responding to everybody's messages and I
feel like because I was sick that I kind
of fell off a little bit by getting a
little bit behind with messages and and
then once now I'm hilly not now Ezra's
been sick and I've got
three nights with like literally two
hours of sleep each night and I'm just
I'm drained I didn't come home and take
a nap today
I stayed up and continued to edit videos
that I needed to edit for my my crafts
corner Tuesday because those ones those
ones I will like mass shoot I guess you
would say how would you say that we're
like I do multiple videos at like one
time and then I break them up so that I
have multiples behind so if there's a
week that I you know just don't have
time to do a craft I at least have
things in my bank to pull out but my
vlogs are daily you guys get fresh vlogs
like I've never logged a day behind or
you know like like you guys will see
what I'm doing today you'll see that
tomorrow but the chocolate sorry I was
reading and I said that I would dump
this out and put fresh ice and water in
this place for me and I empty okay do
you have any more anyways um but oh
sorry so now I've been dealing with Ezra
being sick and me having to be up with
her during the night and it's just like
when am I gonna get a break so I can do
this so I have literally been sitting on
the laptop catching up on everybody's
messages I do want to say if there is a
time that goes where I am NOT that I
don't get to your messages in a timely
manner please don't ever take that
offensively don't feel like anyways the
life of the mother I had another person
comment to me and say well you need to
start punishing your children and having
more giving having more discipline you
can have that having discipline with
your children and I need to start
keeping my kids cleaner you guys like I
told you before this is my life I don't
do fake they're gonna be days so my kids
look like a hot mess they're gonna be
days that I look like a hot mess and
then there are gonna be days that my
kids look put together and me as well
this is my life I don't want to I'm not
a sitcom you know like I'm not I don't I
don't make up my life okay that's right
thank you for cleaning now go I don't
make up my life I don't put on a fake
you know when you guys are my kids
screaming because my kids are screaming
okay okay as well thank you for clean go
throw their way uh you know my kids are
screaming that's what is going on in
that very moment no I don't want to have
my kids screaming the whole time but
also my kids are 2 and 3 and that's just
the age gap that they're in right now
where they want to be heard they want to
be heard now and I am working on it I
promise you may not see it on camera so
much but I do work on it and they are
you know learning to ask politely and
say thank you and you know things like
that so I am really working on it if my
kids are dirty I'm sorry
I you know I let my kids be kids I my
kids are not robots and that's just how
it goes I mean that's this is me I love
it
and I love everything about my aspect of
my life and I have never gotten shot
down by any of you guys so I know it was
a troll it doesn't hurt my feelings in
fact I looked at Holly and I just
started laughing he's like what is wrong
I'm like oh well according to somebody s
was always filthy on camera and I need
to start being more disobedient to my
children and he said ok he's like all
right and what about it and I'm like I
don't know I said but you know there's
always got to be one out there a little
worm a little cockroach so yeah that
person was very quickly taken off and I
do that I you know if I notice it's a
troll off you go
I don't have time there's too many
amazing people in this channel to have
any drama and you know I don't I don't
entertain drama I don't accept it on my
channel
I don't accept people being rude or
disrespectful to anybody not just with
me but with anybody everybody is to have
respect with everybody and I asked that
for everybody
same as I would expect it for myself so
I just laughed and you know I've always
let my kids be whom they want to be now
when we go to the store my kids have
gone in with their pajamas on I ain't
one of those moms that are like oh you
gotta have your hair done you gotta have
it done perfect and you got to have it
done like this and you can't have a hair
out and I'm gonna put some mascara on
your eyes because you gotta look hot you
know nope my daughter's going to and
she's gonna be a two-year-old she wants
to go in the store with her slippers
what she's not impressing anybody she's
only impressing me and she's cute to me
so but yeah I thought that was kind of
cute the comment oh and I was told I
needed to lose weight and I needed to
lose weight there was something else I
can't remember something that was
irrelevant to my entire channel like I
just was like someone is bored someone
needs to find something to do with
themselves but yeah so if anybody's seen
that comment it's off there's no no
point in entertaining disrespecting
childish crap I just I don't I don't
tolerate it so yeah anyways back to what
I was talking about so I just wanted to
apologize to you guys because I didn't
want anybody to feel like I was
purposely not commenting back or
messaging it like I said has been so
hectic the last couple weeks between me
being sick no as for being sick Mya's
his asthma has been acting up and this
is about the time of the year that he
usually gets pneumonia so I had been
really cautious with him because last
year last year was the first year that
they did not threaten to put him in the
hospital and the only reason why is
because I caught it quick enough but
he's had pneumonia four years in a row
and it's just it's his lungs he's always
had poor poor immune to his lungs like
he can condemn me
just attracts anything and everything
he's kind of like oli
someone could sneeze ten miles away and
oli will catch the cold how I don't know
but I'm serious my husband can catch
anything that floats in the air I'm just
like would you take vitamins I don't
need them like okay well kinda looks
like you do when you're always the one
getting sick Oh men they always know
everything so he's even sick on top of
it so the only ones that are not sick
right now knock on some wood is via
Nomar and so I'm and I usually I knock
on wood I usually don't get it I usually
am the only one out of everybody that
does not manage to get it which is
surprising because I seem to get
everything else but no I don't get colds
or flus or anything like that oh I
better not just drinks myself so um
anyways but other than that I mean we're
all doing good and one you know and I'm
building my strength up every single day
I'm just getting better and better so
it's just a matter of I need to get back
into routine with my working out I need
to get back into routine with a lot of
things I've you know I mean I haven't
been having an issue with losing weight
but that doesn't mean it's not going to
come and catch me and bite me in the
butt later if I continue to be too
lenient with myself so today I have been
but I have been drinking I have drink
like seven of these so far these are 24
ounce it doesn't say what the ounces are
but I want to say it's like a 24 ounce
and I've drink like seven of them so I
know they do have ice in them so of
course I'm not getting all the water
from
24 ounces but um I've drank a lot of
water and I did get a coffee today but I
didn't even drink the whole thing I got
a grande and I think I drink like half
of it it just wasn't what I wanted after
I got it but I think because I'm really
trying to press like the fluids through
I really really really am trying to get
as much water and fluids that I can that
are counting towards water so I just I'm
trying to get back on track like I need
to just find my routine again I haven't
gotten off track with my you know with
my eating habits like I mean I've been
really good with that and um I just I
feel like I'm snacking a lot rather than
eating mils I feel like I'm snacking
like okay for instance today I had and I
need to do a day in the life of what I
eat I know I've been asked that multiple
times and I don't know why you would
think it's really easy I always have my
phone on me I always have everything to
or to do it I just I don't know why I
just don't but I need to start anyways
but like for this morning I have okay so
today I had a flat bagel with strawberry
cream cheese and then about two hours
later I had probably a half a cup of
Wheat Thins and then I didn't eat again
I had the half of a grande coffee so I
mean I'll take half of the 140 calories
and count that as what I did for my
coffee then I had me and oli shared a
sub from it's called sandwich Express
it's really good sandwich place and
they're their searches are not bad in
calories but they're way better than
Subway like way better so me and him got
a sense in 6-inch and we shared it but I
only like I literally ate
half and he ate half so we literally got
four inches each or three and a half
inches you know two and a half inches
each yeah now let me do some math here
so anyway so we did that and then I came
home and that's all I've had I've had
water that's all I've had and of course
my kids are been eating nothing but crap
but I haven't honey there's no more
they're all gone I'm gonna have to buy
you some more later there's no more
right now I have to buy you some more
okay mommy's gonna make you dinner here
in just a little bit okay get an orange
and bring it to mom she has been hooked
on the mandarin oranges and I bought him
from for a pack of 12 for like two
dollars honey anyways so yeah she's been
so hooked on those mandarin oranges and
I mean again those are really good
snacks I I can Mayan put it on minions
for her please in the living room and I
can even eat those for a snack
so I think next time I'm gonna get
another couple boxes of those because I
can see you know my kid well her her not
Omar Omar Maya won't touch him for
nothing he mm-hmm
you guys got the small
but she ledum she likes them but anyways
and so now for dinner tonight I will
have the taco salad and then oli is
gonna bring home some homemade salsa
from a Mexican restaurant that we get
our salsa and chips from we do not buy
bagged chips unless we absolutely have
to from the store because we can go to
the local Mexican restaurant and we just
order a family size of their chips and
they give us a huge bag like uh you a
little the big zipper lock ziplock bags
like the court ones it fills up like six
of those of chips it is so much for like
three dollars you can't beat that
so we get those and then we get the
salsa and so I'll use the salsa on my
salad because it just sounds yummy but
anyways back to what I was talking about
about routine so I just really need to
get myself into another set of a routine
with my working now and stuff and I've
been kicking myself in the butt because
the weather has been just perfect to do
outside walking and I haven't I haven't
taken the opportunity to do it and I
know once it really starts raining I'm
in a turnaround be like oh well I should
be able to walk but now it's raining
that's how I work that's how it is so I
need to take advantage of outside
walking when I can and I really need to
get back into my inside exercise you
know the kids absolutely love doing it
too that's what was so much fun is that
the kids enjoyed it and so I want to
keep doing it just because the kids
enjoy doing it and it does get my heart
rate going and it does get me moving and
and it will help me drop weight faster
so why not so I am going to starting
tomorrow I am going to start getting
back into my routine of working out and
exercising and really taking serious
to this goal that I have set before
myself because failing on sorry the
laptop sitting on my lap and pushing
buttons um failing on a goal that I have
set before myself is unacceptable and
it's not okay so I will do this
and I'm going to reach my goal there is
no option I'm not giving myself a
lenience of well if I reach my goal no
we are going to reach my goal so
starting tomorrow guys hold me
accountable starting tomorrow I will be
doing my exercising and I'm gonna be
more proactive with my letting go of the
snacking and eating actual wholesome
meals because I know that yeah I'm
probably staying within my calories
because I'm still losing but I don't
want that to be the habit of how I eat I
don't want to have the habit of
constantly snacking I want to know that
my body knows it's time for a meal we
sit down
we eat a meal and we're done we don't
constantly have to have food in our
fingers on our mind at our feet you know
I want to be able to eat a meal feel
full you know and be good and you know
if I need a snack within the timeframe
you know eat something that is not going
to be a carb or calorie counter but more
the snack would be just to kind of put
something in my my body for it to
continue to keep my metabolism running
but not to have to be constantly eating
more snacks because those snacks are
going to turn into more and that's just
how I'm gonna end up down the road I was
at 498 pounds you know and I
I don't want that so clearly I need to
get this under control with my snacking
because yes I'm controlling it now but I
can't guarantee I'll always have control
what I think Maya threw it away
I think you threw it away here take this
I don't know who's this from Maya this
is Cody Cody Cody Cody friends jr. this
is
Oh cute Jer I think your sister has your
letter who's Cody huh oh one of your
friends drew that Oh
it says it's a scary man go take it to
brother it's his honey oh now it's hers
Jeremiah give me your come here bring me
your school picture so I can show our
friends he got his school picture taken
and done and I just received it my baby
so big
let me see your school picture careful
honey
careful I need to get it in the frame
look at my baby
it was so cute that is Jeremiah he's
just kidding so I just I look at this
picture and all I can see is him when he
was a baby I'm like oh when he first aid
his first thing of baby food yes and
took his first steps that's all I see in
that picture my babies are all getting
older because Omar's gonna be 4 in
February yes there's gonna be three in
February my is gonna be 11 in fact are
in April my babies are growing up but
I'm ok with that
it's only 6:40 so she goes and tells him
to shut up
sibling rivalry at their finest anyways
um so yeah that's all that is what I am
gonna plan tomorrow is I am gonna get my
big cushy up and I'm gonna get working
on it um I just need to press forward
because you know like I said when I got
my cellulitis in my leg it kind of
pulled me back a little bit and I just I
don't want that I want to push forward
and I want to succeed and be the best
that I can be and so yeah I I really
want the best for myself and that means
I've got to get on board like I've got
to get on board quick so that I don't
start backtracking so that is the goal
for tomorrow along with I'm going to
continue to keep pushing - let me see oh
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that's a mint okay sometimes it's
dangerous what they come out of Maya's
room with anyways but I'm gonna continue
to keep pushing water water water water
water I can't stress to myself enough
how important it is to keep drinking my
water and so I am really gonna be firm
with myself about my water drinking and
the less snacking and the more exercise
well starting my exercising because I
have been like completely off of
exercising for a while anyways has
everything went falling I swear my child
my daughter
I mean her gonna fight we're gonna fight
when she gets bigger I can guarantee it
we're gonna be
no we're too much with the same type of
people who's gonna be scary but anyways
I am just gonna go ahead and close my
vlog because the kids I think are gonna
start needing my attention I need to go
and make them say I hate to go make them
some dinner so they can get their butts
too bad anyways I hope you guys enjoyed
this crazy vlog before I pull my hair
out
literally I will check in with you guys
bright and shiny tomorrow morning not
sure what's on the agenda but like I say
you never know with the Ramadan's
anyways sweet dreams you guys bye bye
